I didn’t know it was heroin, I thought it was an oxy overdose. My former fiancé from another time in my life, lost his life this way this past November. -
His death has allowed me to look at the most brutally painful and abusive time in my life and connect to that girl again. For a very long time I was so embarrassed to have ever been that girl, so for 6 years I shoved her away and only focused on becoming new, and a person I’d be proud of again and I kinda needed to do that for awhile, but I don’t disown that chapter of my life anymore. Sometimes in the healing so much is uncovered and unearthed you can feel worse or more broken than before, you might even feel frustrated like you’re taking steps backward. The pain is where the light gets in... eventually. : ) Almost everyone is going through something, something known, or something silent. Breath through this time and know that you are NOT permanently broken. Like bones, the heart, the mind, and even the brain's synaptic pathways can repair and reform. We can know hope, joy, excitement and adventure in our lives again! YOU DON’T HAVE TO KNOW WHAT TO DO, that’s too much pressure right now. Allow the Holy Spirit to comfort and guide you in love and restoration, because if you will lean in there, that’s the hope that is in store for you. BE KIND and PATIENT with your pain, with the person you see in the mirror... even with your very eyes looking back at you saying “ i don’t want to be this person.” I challenge you, accept yourself RIGHT NOW, AS YOU ARE because this version of you is worthy of love RIGHT NOW. P.S have you ever played two truths and a lie? Will you share two hopeful truths about who you are and one lie that threatens to make you feel like 💩?