It started when i was 7. After the first time i was molested my life changed, and In my life i have struggled with the following; depression, anxiety, depersonalization, derealization, ptsd, and pure o (a form of ocd)
It’s still really weird for me to say these words, and honestly i don’t have a lot to say right now except... you are not alone and i personally believe that any struggle you may have right now, is not a label that you must wear forever. You are adapting, your brain and experiences can change, and if they stick around for awhile you can still have a beautiful and fulfilling life. When you wake up and you are still struggling, you have not failed. There is a myth, it says that if you work through something that it’s just over, it’s just done. Some things don’t work that way and this is actually NORMAL. C.S Lewis says “we must begin again each day, as if nothing had yet been done.” Please do not be discouraged, when the day hits, you feel knocked out and everyone around you seems happy and doing so great. There is a world of people feeling like you. You aren’t so screwed up, you aren’t alone. You do need support, you do need community. And finally, if you are brave enough, your experience can help others feel less alone. KNOWING MANY DIFFERENT FORMS OF PAIN IS LIKE KNOWING MULTIPLE LANGUAGES, IT GIVES YOU THE ABILITY TO SPEAK TO MORE PEOPLE. Over and out.